I noticed this today. A disengagement of interest happening. I am less interested in activities that used to bring energy into my heart.
Where have I drifted?
I do not know what it means. I do not know if it matters.
Right now I'm reading a book on writing. I am going to share a passage so that when I copy each word I will remember that it once changed my writing.
From Several Short Sentences About Writing by Verlyn Klinkenborg:
Who's going to give you the authority to feel that what you notice is important?
It will have to be you.
The authority you feel has a great deal to do with how
you write, and what you write,
With your ability to pay attention to the shape and
meaning of your own thoughts
And the value of your own perceptions.
Being a writer is an act of perpetual self-authorization.
No matter who you are.
Only you can authorize yourself.
You do that by writing well, by constant discovery.
No one else can authorize you.
This doesn't happen overnight.
It's as gradual as the improvement in your writing.